When I was a teenager, which wasn’t yesterday, (one of the many discarded as a Thatcher hidden statistic under the guise of the Manpower Services Commission’s mission to dig holes in public areas in the morning and fill them in again in the afternoon) my best pal, who had escaped by joining the forces, used to come home to our small former paper mill focussed town every couple of weeks on a weekend and bring with him a group of various friends he’d made from around the UK, male and female. These were folk with different views, different outlooks and higher degrees of confidence and access to opportunities to most of us at that time in the post-industrial depressed central belt of Scotland.
I could have done the Norman Tebbit ‘get on my bike’ thing too but with my mother’s health becoming increasingly worse at the time I wasn’t for leaving (I eventually did leave home heading south to city life to find work three months after Mum passed away, and acquired a half decent job within three weeks).
Anyway, when my pal and his crowd, which very quickly also became my crowd, came for the weekend we would have great times, much merriment, and sharing of views and opinions, new ideas to hear, a complete breath of fresh air for me. They’d arrive sometime on a Friday afternoon, after a long drive in convoy from the midlands, and the last of them would leave on Sunday nights. I thoroughly enjoyed their company. Then they’d be off, to their busy, varied and meaningful lives.
On Monday morning’s, donning the steel toecap boots and a yellow plastic weather jacket to stand in a field all day like a jaundiced Highland coo I would be devastated, I felt suffocated, abandoned, denied, jealous, I was missing out simply because of circumstances and geography. I resented all of the Thatcherite capitalist wrecking ball vandalism that had been done to my country, the destruction and damage to the lives of people around me, and to this day the memory of that feeling of suffocation and abandonment is still one of the motivators in my overwhelming burning determination to do my bit, like many hundreds of thousands of others, to assist in helping my country return to its rightful state of independence. My grandchildren, just starting on their life journeys now, deserve much better than that.
Perhaps what I’ve just written, dear readers, may have you thinking that I’m being a wee bit too personal or overly emotional about my own experiences, and if so I apologise, but I write it to illustrate a feeling that I think we, the Yes Movement, no matter what part of the currently disparate parts, politically or otherwise, we may find ourselves in, may experience over the next couple of weeks as the world around us, from beyond the stifling faux-beneficent hug and barrier of sea-borne sewerage of little empire Britannicus, comes to town. They are coming to our place, to our country, they are coming to talk adult business, to have serious discourse, to debate, to share ideas, to negotiate, to put in place initiatives to stop us as a species destroying our world. They are doing this critical and fascinating work in Scotland.
Serious, bright people, representing the rest of the world, in Scotland, who will not be hosted by us, but by the government from another country which stifles us, smothers us, holds us back and uses us. Our own democratically selected leadership and government will be shunned for the most part, even as it tries to push itself into the crowd-scene, already our major city’s local government is being subject to humiliation and a campaign of pervasive untruths and snide negativity, too wee, too poor, too dirty Glasgow.
We, the people of Scotland, we’ll see all that goes on at the Cop26 Conference over the next two weeks on the telly, we’ll hear about it on the radio, we’ll read about it online and in the rags, we will marvel at some of the initiatives and debate, we will resent other views, but we will be standing in the rain outside watching the parade go by. Ignored. Outsiders in our own country, stuck in the corner behind the red, white and blue flags. invisible.
Then? Then they will all leave. The conference lights will dim, flicker and go out. As we watch we will wonder, what makes our country any less valuable or less worthy than the countries who were represented at the conference, given their place, respected, their views listened to, their votes counted? Why are we different? Why are we digging holes and filling them back in whilst most of the rest of the world (with exceptions) gets on with the perfectly normal process of going back to their countries and continuously having their democratic will respected and duly acted upon? We will, and should be, angry, but we will grit our teeth and store away the emotion.
Perhaps in a wild dreamlike fantasy, like the closing sequence of the unlikely war/football film hit of a few decades ago “Escape to Victory” when the occupied French civilian crowd invaded the pitch and bundled up all of the allied prisoners into civilian clothes and shuffled them all of the freedom through the gates of the stadium past the occupying forces, as each of the delegates leave the conference area for their various corners of the globe they’ll bundle up a couple of thousand of us each with them, symbolically to set us free, to recognise our sovereignty.
Then again, we are not going anywhere. This is our country. We are taking our country back. Democracy will prevail. Scotland will once again be governed by its own people. It’s coming.
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